Asterisks

somehow i found the patience

to calmly explain to annie

that i was not implicating her in

my frustration

with the

confusing

medication copay assistance program glossy paper

and still i told her that

i had to express it was wrong

of me to have to pay $250 for 1 month

when they said i only had to pay $35,

it was

that

asterisk,

you know,

*

* <---there

do you see it now?

i told annie that when they put an asterisk,

perhaps they should write,

in your case,

$35 is $250...

i told annie, it is not right not to explain exactly what i owed

and she said they changed the rule yesterday

and now 35 is 35

and not 250

and she was sorry,

it does not count for me

for last week

but it would from now on.

i explained to annie,

that if i was not a neuro nurse with 4 years of taking copaxone

experimentally

(now suddenly happy for 4 years w/no copays, no insurance claims)

so i could see how well it made me

then when i had to deal with a 250$ a month copay,

i would probably say bag the whole mess,

especially after I got a bill for $750 for 30 days

(my 20% copay),

but they said do not worry,

and

and i thanked annie

and for her mental health i terminated the phone call amicably.

then wondered how i ever could capture my emotion

to put on my blog and i find

myself a little

sprachlos,

except what i could squeeze out above,

it does not capture my total feeling

of being a cog,

and suffering the inability to control

this pharma-machine

i read my fellow bloggers w/ms

and what crap we all have to deal with to get

just what i feel are the basics.

hope you do not become incapacitated

by

the battle w/ the MonSter

or the struggles against

the

asterisks

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